Thorn in my side

Reading through the history of my blog was indeed an enlightening experience. Things have obviously not been particularly easy for me at all, even though when I try and remember them, it doesn’t feel that way at all.

I remember some of the things, but I can’t recall the emotions at all. Theophostic counselling about a year ago helped me to realise that it was easy to forgive and to let go of stuff that hurts.

I’m in the most vexing of situations at present. There’s a job opportunity in Toronto going open, and I’m considering looking into it. But I first have to decide if I actually want to leave South Africa. Everything I love is here, everyone I love is here. I have a house, a car, a life. And would Taryn want to move? Do I want her to move with me? Would it be for a few years, or permanently? What if it was my choice?

Very difficult indeed.

And my emotional state is still not stable after the weekend. That girl really messed up my brains for me. Can’t believe I let it happen. Would have been very upset if I didn’t.

I received my 5 year service award from the company. Funny that it would happen after the company got bought out by a rival, eh? 5 years. Plus the contracts and stuff, I’ve been around the place for nearly 8 years now. I’m furniture here…

At least they’re nice pens, I like them. Feels good to be awarded for working your ass off. Pens don’t sew your ass back on, but it helps fill in the forms at the hospital (

I think I could be okay today. I’m glad I have this blog; it gives me a place to weed out my thoughts.

Random thought of the day: I wish I was a dog. Dogs have it easy. They don’t have the complications of falling in love.