Catching up

August last year, I went to Germany, to the Wacken Open Air Festival.

It was the most enjoyable, and most painful, experience of my life. I went with two friends, Nick and Shereen, the significant other did not accompany me, since metal isn't her thing.

Enjoyable:
I got to see bands that I have been listening to for decades. Matt Barlow's last show with Iced Earth before retiring, Judas Priest's last show ever, Ozzy Osbourne, Blind Guardian, Avanantasia, Motorhead - This was one incredible show. I met wonderful people, made some awesome new friends, and saw a country for how a country should be. I love Germany.

Painful:
I realised that my relationship with Bianca was on the rocks. The voice inside was loud and destructive, eating me up and spitting me out over and over. Upon my return to South Africa, Bianca and I went to see a family therapist. The therapist helped me see that I really was the problem in our relationship. I no longer added any meaning to their lives, and I needed to leave. So September 2011, I moved out.

The band recorded a demo in March, titled Chastity. We've submitted it on the RoadRunner Records SignMeTo website, let's see what happens.

In February this year, I started dating a wonderful woman.

The problem? The voice is still there, loud and extremely obvious. I hate myself. I am polluting her with my filth. I don't deserve the air I breathe.



Random thought: Save a little prayer for the fallen one.