Last night, I visited Taryn.

I took my previous two blogs along, because she wanted to see them. She took quite some time to read them, because she didn't want to feel akward.

Met her cockatiel, the bird is okay with me. Will probably take forever to like me, but it's okay with me for now. I know mine will be very fond of Taryn. Yes, we both have cockatiels.

Slept over at her spot, Joburg is too dangerous to travel home at past midnight. Held her all night. Her body temperature is almost lava-like, and since it's winter, I most definately welcome it. She decided yesterday that we are Twin Flames, and I tend to agree with her. I want to be with this woman forever, she makes me feel like a king.

Asked her to be my long-term squeeze last night, and she accepted. I am now a happy man.

Mary Lehmann returned from her holiday today, she looks so well rested and fresh. New haircut too. Shame, she deserved it: She works her ass to the ground sometimes.

She gave some games, INet+ Study Guides and a couple of books, not sure what they all are though. And Navy Blue Curtains. Which I need, since I'm moving so very soon. God is definately looking out for me.

Relationship with parents are getting much better nowadays, they can understand my frustration in life. It took some explaination, since they don't have a clue what my job entails, but I think it's all sorted now, which I'm very happy about.

Going to on the 17th and 18th July, for a bit of meditation and get away. Meditation is a great thing, for relationships, religion, anything. It's basically a simple way of getting away from life while you're busy living it.



Random thought of the Day: Man who run behind bus get exhausted.

I arrived at work a little early today, and made some Milo. Haven't had Milo in a while.

Band practice went well, we are now covering Ministry's "Burning Inside" and Static-X's "Cold". Cold is such a nice song to play, especially for me as drummer. Not very busy, but so exceptionally intense. I also supplied some lyrics for our instrumental, "Song 69", which from now on will be known as "Man". They're so different to what I'm used to writing, but it's good - Shows that I'm growing in the art of music, that I'm evolving as artist.

Marie, the ex, wanted me to phone her. She had something to discuss. So I figure, no harm. Speak to her. Am upset, she's been making shit with my friends who didn't want to be my friends anymore anyways because of her. So I phoned them and apologized. Henk's cool about it, thankfully.

Phoned Taryn after band practice was over. We spoke about half an hour, and I loathed putting down the phone. She has such a sultry voice. This woman drives me insane. My Dream Girl, Aœde (In Greek mythology, Aœde was one of the three original Muses {goddesses of arts and science}, though there were later nine. She was the muse of song. Muses inspired artists, musicians and poets. Alternative : Aoide, Aoede)

After taking Mo home, I got into bed (with hot water bottle, it was freezing), and sent her some SMS. One of them, I tell her how much I like her (which we've been doing constantly, but this was much more detailed). She responds that it made her cry. I feel incredible, because she didn't cry of sadness.

Fell asleep clutching a pillow. Pity it doesn't smell like her, that sure would have been nifty.

Today is overcast. I love overcast weather, everything always feels better. The sun is not in your eyes, it stays dark for longer, my car feels more cozy, and tonight I'm visitng Taryn. I'm hoping it will be cold, so she will look for warmth from me. Don't know where to go or what to do though, because nowhere feels good enough for her. I want to buy a castle, so she can live in luxury, and I want to drive a Bentley Arnage, so she will be in complete comfort.

I really can't wait to love her. It's so very selfish of me, but that the way it is. Loving this woman will be the final step to making my life perfect.

Anyways, sent out a memo to all the peeps in the office, we have received a new server and I was just explaining how things will be done for the transfer and switchover. All the expected downtimes need to be carefully planned. I'm not too good with planning, the IT field doesn't allow it, things always happen suddenly, so I never learned the skill. Taryn is a planner, so I had better adjust. Don't want to annoy her. Ever.

Just sent her an SMS, I reckon we should go out for dinner tonight. I do want to meet her housemates, but not while I want to spend to time with JUST HER. There's plenty of time before I die, the expectected lifetime of a South African Male is 70, so I have 45 years left to meet them. No rush whatsoever. Unless she gives me the boot, then I may not have much time on this earth. I shall surely die if things don't work out. At least we'll be great friends afterwards, or so I hope. That was her idea in a SMS last night - If it don't work, we hang out anyway.

Ooh, ooh! Found my ID book last night. It was in my drumming sticks' bag. Put it in there when we played at Six Pack in June, and I forgot it there. Must remember to do my tax returns before the weekend. And to secure my bank accounts on Saturday. And to start packing my stuff, since I'll be moving house. Very excited. It's closer to Taryn's spot than where I live now too, so everything's cool.

Jay Smith just phoned. Fucker want's to bypass the Windows DVD Region settings. Told him about DVD Genie. He's gonna be my neighbor. Also told him of Taryn, he's so happy for me. Told Hilda about her too, but Hilda is upset. She wanted me to date her daughter, but the girl is a tad TOO uptight. And she's blonde, don't want a blonde woman ever again, they're bad news.

Been picking away at this blog for almost an hour now, peeps asking me questions and what forth.

Looking forward to tonight.

Random thought of the Day: How long has it been, since Man has been Man?

So around Wednesday, my sister sends me a phone number of a colleague of hers.

I figure, new friends are always welcome. So I start harassing her. Friday comes, we have a date. Took her to Percy Ricardo's in Northcliff - Very cozy.

She arrives, and my jaw drops. She's beautiful. But not makeup, blonde model beautiful. A perfect, natural beauty, with none of the scars of her years. She has lines around her eyes, she smiles a lot. Great smile too, must entertain her to keep her smiling!

The conversation flowed, and after dinner, we sat in my car - She wanted to know what music I listened to. She's familiar with Rock, but not the stuff that I have. Type O, Theatre of Tragedy, Nightwish, etc. So I edumacated her.

So we felt great around one another. All the SMS of the first three days (Wednesday to Friday) let me into believing she's a great gal. I was mistaken. She was an awesome gal, that's what she was!

The we left for Melville, to get a few beers, maybe coffee later on. She likes beer. That 100,000,000 points in her favour.

We spent the whole time talking shit, no particular subjects. Then, at 4:30am, we said goodbye. I drove with her to her house, to make sure she's safe. We used seperate cars, to reduce the awkwardness if things turned sour. Which never happened.

So I give her a hug, and I feel her heart beating rather heavily. At this point, I was just like "She's cool, should go out again together soon". Her heartbeat said "I dig you", and the hug confirmed it, it was so tight and close. She became shy, and she let her guard down, showing the "Girl" behind the veil of toughness and locked gates. I like what I see.

The drive home revealed that she's into me. Some really nice messages as I drove. I became more keen on seeing her again, she seemed so impressed with me. Will need some more time on this though, it's too early to judge.

An entire Saturday without her was hell. The evening, I went to club Syn, and later to Zeplins in Pretoria. Nobody had anything interesting to say to me, they all bored me to death. In comparison, of course.

On Sunday, I couln't wait anymore, I felt very intrigued by her. She was visiting a friend, but I just negotiated to see her when she returns. So we go to a movie at 6pm, watched Butterfly Effect. Had a beer before the movie, then we went into the theatre. She doesn't seem keen on watching a movie, don't think she's much of flick fan. But she DID agree...

Wow, she's beautiful. Oh wait, I'm supposed to watch the movie. Good flick, methinx. Confusing, but not disappointing at all. I shift a little closer, she smells good. She moves closer also. Nice. Movie was cool, and she enjoyed the story. I'm glad she wasn't bored. Really pleased.

Grabbed coffee after the movie. Something's different, we're more relaxed all of a sudden. Driving home, she wants to stop everywhere for some coffee. Don't think she wants me to drop her off and go home. I don't intend on doing so either.

At her spot, she invites me in. I accept. The time was 10:30pm. We start chatting, talking all kinds of stuff. Deeper than earlier the evening. She's quite shy. By 12:15, I think, gotta go. She excuses herself, and returns with a blanket. It being winter, I welcome it!

We sit on the same couch, no shoes. Tiny couch, very close.

Smelling better every second...

Discussion turns to messages we've sent during the Saturday. She says they were sincere. I say the same about mine, and I mean it. Can't be happening, we only met 2 days ago!

At around 2:30, after lots of hinting and whatnot, she says that she's falling in love with me. I feel butterflies in my stomach. Turn my head away. Find myself saying : "I think I'm falling in love with you too". I mean that as well.

More talking, some hugs, touching of face, etc.

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Note to the perverted amongst you:

No, you single minded fuck. I did not rip her clothes off and I did not violate her every orifice. If you want porn, go to Hustler.com, not my blog.
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Fell asleep around 4:00am. I remember sweating a lot. Thinking it was nerves. She held me all the time, and it was the best, most intense feeling I have ever experienced. Not even Estelle could match this girl. And this was day 2, or day 3, if you want to get technical. Wake up every half and hour, wanting to kiss this girl.

She also sleeps very lightly, half awaking every now and again, mumbling something, taking a sip of coke or adjusting the blanket.

Awoke at 6am, only got up at 7:20am. When I left her spot, there was nothing left of the tough, independant, single girl I entered the house with earlier. She was soft, cute, and very shy. Went home, bathed, and went to work. Told the work that I overslept because of medication. They bought it.

This was a relaxed day at work. I cannot stop thinking of her, she has bewitched me.

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If you think my story is soppy, go fuck yourself. I have not felt this passionate about anyone in 6 years. Actually, not ever! I have been exceptionally lonely, and now I can live again.
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She makes me feel complete. Thank you Taryn.

Random Thought of the Day: Just when you think you have it figured out, life kicks you under the ass.